A moment of reflection.

Wow, 2010 has been a rough year for me. Well, since the summertime to now at least.
Now all I can do now is just look back and think of the good times and remembering how awesome they were, the bad times and figuring out how I can change from those mistakes. And you cannot forget those awkward times and trying to figure out, "What in the hell was I thinking/doing?!"

To my co-workers from the summer- You guys are the greatest! Being able to joke around and hang out with the guys was the best. Ordering pizza and wings and getting hit on by the sand truckers made it hillarious.
To my college friends- Thanks for being there for me. You guys always made the Boyd worth while. I'm really glad I met you last year and this year. Cannot wait for more adventures.
To Justin Salada- You made me realize who I am. Thank you. I love music more than what I thought. Practicing actually makes you become better, and I never did so. If you never pushed me to do so, I wouldn't be where I am.
To Erich Petsch- Oh the emotional roller-coaster that we rode. I'm really glad we are giving this a 2nd shot. You mean the world to me. You have helped me through a lot of my rough spots in my life and I am pretty excited that you are there to help me with more.

So, with 2010 almost at a close, it shows me that one completely changes in a year. Now, raise a glass(wine, beer, soda, whatever!) and let's make a toast. A toast to make 2011 a kick ass year!

30 Day Challenge- Day 30

-Day 30-

A picture of someone you miss

-Erich-

I miss him being my boyfriend. I miss him being in my life. I miss my best friend. I miss being able to joke around with someone and ACTUALLY be myself.

30 Day Challenge- Day 29

-Day 29-
A picture that can always make you smile

-This one! :)-

Yep. He is adorable. Yep. We aren't together. Yep. It will happen again. Yep. I love him. Yep. All of these 'yep's' are getting annoying. Haha XD

30 Day Challenge- Day 28

-Day 28 : Part 1-

A picture of something you are afraid of.

-Bees-

Although I am not allergic to them, I am sooooooooooo freaking afraid of them. DX

-Day 28 : Part 2-

A picture of something that you are afraid of.

-Being alone-

I just get to thinking a lot, ya know? I start to think, what if I do end up alone? What if I can't find someone? Yeah, it really sucks. :\

30 Day Challenge- Day 27

-Day 27-

A picture of yourself and a family member

-Me and my seeeeeeeeester-

Right before a concert. Yeah, we are cool :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 26

-Day 26-

A picture of something that means a lot to you.

-My parents-

Yeah, I might not get along with them all the time, but they are the greatest. I wouldn't know what I would do without them. They are the greatest roll models out there and I couldn't ask for greater ones :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 25

-Day 25-

A picture of your day.

-Doctor's Appointment-

Blahhhh. Another attempt to see what is wrong with my head, well, why I am getting these headaches. :\

30 Day Challenge- Day 24

-Day 24-

A picture of something you wish you could change.

-Myself-

It looks really bad when I keep posting things of myself, basically saying I hate me. Well, it be true. Yesterday, I was talking to one of my good friends, and he says that I'm great. But then his parents say I'm something else, that I'm doing things that I KNOW that I'm not doing. Well then. Thanks for making me feel like shit, pretty much. I really and TRULY appreciate it. Because, you know, I might be failing a lot of classes, and have toooo much on my plate, and all of that. Just to make me feel more bad about myself on how I cannot do anything. Thanks.

Either way, I really do hate myself. My body is just, bleh. My way of thinking is getting allll messed up, and it just looks like I cannot do anything correctly. So, changing all of that would be fan-fucking-tastic.

30 Day Challenge- Day 23

-Day 23-

A picture of your favorite book

-Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson-

I find this book to be truly amazing. Just by posting this, I might have to read it again. <3

30 Day Challenge- Day 22

-Day 22 : Part 1-
A picture of something you wish you were better at

-Singing-
Yeah, I should know better, but I cannot help it. I keep on practicing, more this year than ever, to work on my pitch issues, my support, and my tone. I just cannot get it. I just wish it would happen, just like that.









-Day 22 : Part 2-
A picture of something you wish you were better at

-Drawing-
Okay, I have been in my creative mood recently, ever since finals have been over. And I look at some of my art major friends or DeviantArt and I get so jealous that some of my drawings aren't that good. I know I have to work on it, but it just suckssss. XP

30 Day Challenge- Day 21

-Day 21-
A picture of something you wish you could forget

-Drama-
This semester had toooooooo much drama for my liking. Just go away!!!!

30 Day Challenge- Day 20

-Day 20-
A picture of a place you'd love to travel to

-Ireland!!!!-
I have alwayssss wanted to go there since I was little. Now hopefully, since I am older, that can be more of a realization. :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 19

-Day 19 : Part 1-
A picture and a letter

-Dear Justin-
Alright, first things first. You helped me find myself. Thank you. Although it was the most confusing time of my entire life. You gave me a reality check and just showed me what everything was about. Thanks :)
Oh, and another thing... How come it seems like you kind of ignore me? Just curious!

~Amanda



-Day 19 : Part 2-
A picture and a letter

-Dear Erich-
I am sooo excited that we are getting things worked out. I haven't been this happy for the longest time and I'm so ready to make this work. And honestly, I do not care what my parents think. All that should matter is if I am happy or not. :)
That is all...for now...

~Amanda

30 Day Challenge- Day 18

-Day 18-
A picture of your biggest insecurity

-Myself-
Okay, I might not look all that insecure, but trust me, I am. I always doubt myself and I never do anything without second guessing myself and then I always do the wrong this. Go me!

30 Day Challenge- Day 17

-Day 17 : Part 1-
A picture of something that has impacted your life recently

-Erich Michael Petsch-
Technically, this is a someone. He hasn't just impacted my life recently, it started on November 13th, 2007. Yeah, I hurt him, and yeah, we aren't dating, but I think something might happen again. Either way, he has helped me realize what has happened in my life and I would like to say thanks :)








-Day 17 : Part 2-
A picture of something that has impacted your life recently

-Justin Michael Salada-
Okay, another someone, but still. Justin here has switched my life completely around this whole semester. He made me find God in a weird sense, and no matter what, he will always be there for me, well, when he isn't play COD or working on his composition. :P

30 Day Challenge- Day 16

-Day 16-
A picture of someone who inspires you

-My Aunt Lynn-
She was one strong woman. No matter what she was going through, she would always try and put our family first. Rest in peace Aunt Lynn. We all love and miss you ♥

30 Day Challenge- Day 15

-Day 15-
Something you want to do before you die

-Own a GIANT goat farm-
Okay, one thing that sucked during my childhood was when I had to get rid of our goats. I love those animals to death. So now, my sister and I have it figured out that I am going to have a huge goat farm so where she can have her Nubians and I can have my LaManchas. :D

30 Day Challenge- Day 14

-Day 14 : Part 1-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Kurvin Pfaltzgraff Hershey III-
I love my dad so much. I wouldn't be the stubborn, hard-headed girl that I am now without him, or the electrician, or mechanic, or the builder. :)





-Day 14 : Part 2-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Roseann Lee Hershey-
Although I completely shut her out sometimes, I do love her, a lot. She is always there for me, no matter what. :)






-Day 14 : Part 3-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Aleisha Mae Hershey-
She has always been there for me, through all the stupid boys, all of the stupid drama, everything. :) I loves you seeeeeeester.





-Day 14 : Part 4-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Linda Jane Enfield-
Although she isn't with us anymore, she was my closest aunt. I miss her with everything I have. She was the strongest woman I know. I love and miss you Aunt Lynn. ♥

30 Day Challenge- Day 13

-Day 13 : Part 1-
A picture of your favorite band or artist

-Breaking Benjamin-
They are totally love :) Whenever I'm down, they always help me boost my mood






-Day 13 : Part 2-
A picture of your favorite band or artist

-Amy Lee-
Same thing goes here. Her voice is so soothing and just relaxing to me. :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 12

-Day 12-
A picture of something you love

-Music-
Alrighty then. Music is my everything pretty much. I love to sing and I love to play my percussion. Without those two things in my life, I wouldn't really know what to do honestly. Sometimes, they add to the stress I have, but for the majority, they relieve it in a heartbeat. ♥

30 Day Challenge- Day 11

-Day 11-
A picture of something you hate

-Cities-
I love my boroughs/towns. They are nice and small and you know basically everyone in the town. In the city, I honestly get afraid to walk around and there is just too much there...

30 Day Challenge- Day 10

-Day 10-
A picture of you and a person you do crazy things with

-My seeeeeeeeester, who else?-
Haha, this picture can be self explanatory. :D I really do miss her and our shenanigans.

30 Day Challenge-Day 9

-Day 9-
A picture of a person who has gotten you through the most

-Erich Michael Petsch-
I really wouldn't know what to do without this kid. He was/is there for me throughout anything. We were close, but then we had relationship problems, but I have a feeling either way, we will bring back that closeness again. He is truly a great friend.
Thank you Erich, you have no idea how much you still mean to me. :)

30 Day Challenge-Day 8

-Day 8-
A picture that makes you laugh

-My band little-
Bri is one amazing girl :) She said she always wanted to be like her big. Hahaha :D

30 Day Challenge-Day 7

-Day 7-
A picture of your most treasured item

-My voice-
Yeah, although I say I hate my voice, I really do. I just love singing so much. It is a getaway from my life and just lets me feel whatever I want.

30 Day Challenge- Day 6

-Day 6-
A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

-My seeester-
She is one strong person. No matter what is thrown at her, she takes it. Plus, it would be interesting to see how it would be to have a full time job, a 2-year-old, and a mother who hovers. :D

30 Day Challenge- Day 5

-Day 5-
A picture of your favorite memory-

-The Class of 2009-
Yeah, it was about 13 years of my life, but still. This was the best class to be a part of. We were pretty damn close to each other. :)

(Shh, I know it's late. I have other priorities.)

30 Day Challenge-Day 4

-Day 4-
A picture of your night

-Mario Party with Amy and Meghan-
A fun time where yelling and screaming profanity at each other is allowed :)

30 Day Challenge-Day 3

-Day 3-
A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show

-House-
2 things:
1]The original cast, not the "newer people"
2]I haven't watched it in forever though! That is what happens when I was in college. I have all of the seasons on DVD though, so I'm content with that :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 2

-Day 2-

A picture of you and the person you've been closest to the longest.

-My sister, Aleisha-

Kinda ironic how her and I are going shopping today. :) Either way, I know she is my sister, but she has been there for me for god knows how long. If I have any problems, I can go to her without judgement. She is one of the greatest people I know. :)

I love you Aleisha ♥

Welcome to Potter County, where there is dial-up and crappy cell phone reception.

So, today was the day where Erich and I returned things. Things went smoothly. Then, the departure came about. Oh wow, awkward much? He asked for a hug, and I didn't think much of it. A hug is a hug. After that, I was starting to venture back to the store and I heard him say, "I miss you". I stop, turn towards him, start to say, "I...", then shrugged my shoulders, then finally said, "I don't know what to say." I laughed and ran back to the store.
I really hope with that kind of comment, I didn't hurt him mentally...

Either way, my parents are starting to get on my nerves, already. Can anyone say, "I'm ready to go back to Clarion"? Ooo, pick me! It is just the little things that get to me... Blah!

Okay, now my little rant. Justin, I really miss you. I know we haven't been able to talk that much this break, but I've been trying my damndest to keep in touch with you. I am attempting to text, and sometimes Facebook chat. I hope this isn't my clingy self coming out, but at least I'm trying to keep in contact. I just want you to call me. Something short and sweet. That's all I ask...

Sorry, mini rant.
All good now. :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 1

-Day 1-

A picture of yourself with 5 facts

-1-

Music is one of my getaways. When I really am singing, I get lost in the music and it is difficult for me to stop.

-2-

Yellow is my absolute favorite color ever since I was little. Show me something yellow, and I am bound to jump up and attack.

-3-

Cooking is another passion for me. Whenever I come home, you can usually find me in the kitchen, making some sort of concoction.

-4-

Although I say that I really hate my hair, I kinda love it. It is a part of me, and basically shows my personality: Crazy!

-5-

Percussion is pretty amazing, if I do say so myself. I always debate on whether I should duel major or not... Hm...

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

November 25, 2010: My 2nd Thanksgiving as a college student.

Today, I felt more like an adult than ever. I was helping out my Grandma, realizing I could be doing this in a couple more years in my own house. I'm so glad to have her as my Grandma. She is strong willed and will never give up.

With that in my mind, I was thinking about my Aunt Lynn, a lot. Another Thanksgiving passed without her at the end of the table. I really do miss her and her crazy shnanigans. I know you are watching up there, and we all think about you :)

I wish I could have seen my sister today. I just want to spend more time with her, but between my college life, and her being a mother now, it is so difficult. I just want to have one-on-one bonding, but that is such a rarity. But I'm excited for Saturday, we are shopping together.

Tomorrow, I'm returning some of the items I have to Erich and vice-versa. This might be tough, and yet, it might not. We are going to be civil about this and be adults. I just hope noone in Greeley's will bite his head off or just completely yell at him.

Now, I'm kinda excited to back to Clarion. I got my fix of home, but now, I just want to get all of my stuff done and over with. Haha. Okay, I also want to see Justin too, you caught me. But only talking for 5 minutes a day gets to me. I am still not used to the limited talking. :\

Although my parents get on my nerves, a lot, I still love them to death. I missed these guys terribly. Yeah, I haven't talked to them as much as I would like to, but that is what I get for being a music major involved with 2 Greeks and a gazillion ensembles. Haha.

Either way, I'm thankful for all of this. It has made me into the person I am today. From the heartbreak, to family, to friends, to love, everything. Happy Thanksgiving.

My goodness!

This weekend was a trip, I tell you what! First, we 'fought', then broke-up, had breakdowns, then lastly, we are back together.

Blah.

Either way, I'm happy again :D

The wheel in the sky keeps on turning...

Yeah for being single?
Not really.
I thought this relationship would actually work out. Welp, I was wrong.
I just cannot win...
:(

I cannot wait to go home...

She had an earthquake on her mind...

So yeah. Let's have a recap, shall we?

Classes:They have been going well. I think I might actually pass Antiquities now. Here is hoping. Aural skills is going pretty good too. :) Here is just hoping I won't have to take another class over again next semester.

Friends: Everything seems like they are patching back up, and I don't think I have been doing that much. I like this. I missed my friends. They are what keep me sane. My world is starting to actually even out. Thank goodness.

Guys: Yeah, they are a pain in the butt, but I deal. Haha. Things with Erich and I are getting wayyyy better than what I thought would happen. We are going to return things during Thanksgiving break. I really hope that everything will go smoothly. Things with Justin and I are just simply amazing. End of story. :P

Greek:TBS is going well. APhiO, I wouldn't know anymore. I am in orchestra and cannot go to the meetings. Grrrrrr....


Either way, everything is going well and I love it! :D

:)

That is all :)

Practice Room Fun

All I have to say is that I love you. I know it is sudden and really early, but that is how I feel. :)
I can actually see my self with you for the rest of my life. Both of us being really successful music teachers and everything.
I haven't been this happy for God knows how long and I love it.
I have a feeling that I glow every time you are around and I cannot stop smiling.
♥

'Cause this is the future, and you are alive.

Yeah. I have no idea what life is taking me.
I'm no longer with Erich Michael Petsch.
I'm currently taken by Justin Michael Ignatius Salada.
School is...moderate. I could possibly fail Antiquities and Aural Skills II.
Clarion isn't pulling my trigger now. I want trees, middle of nowhere, no trace of humans, nature, my home.
People are just getting on my nerves like mad.
TBS- I'll be quitting the Treasurer position next semester and giving my Music committee up to Moria.
APhiO-I might try for secretary next semester.
Oh, I'll probably be taking an 18 credit load and then I have my upper divisional then.
And I need to take my Praxis.
Hopefully I'll be able to come back next year. Thank you financial crap.


Anyways...
This guy, Salad, yeah. :) He is pretty great.
So far, he is the only one who can make me smile, and just can motivate me just enough to accomplish something. [At least this semester...]
Yeahhhhh, I just met him this semester and he is a Freshman. Oh well. :)

And one other thing, although you will probably not read this...
Erich, I am sorry for all the pain I caused you. I know you didn't deserve the hell I put you through. You deserve someone a hell of a lot better than me. Someone you know that can make you so happy it is crazy. I did believe once before that we would be together forever, but fate apparently didn't. I just wish could believe me and just understand where I am coming from. I'm sorry, and I hope you have a great life at Mansfield. You will do great.

I think I got a lot of my bases covered for now...

Everything happens for a reason. Right?

October 2010, you are the most confusing time in my entire life. Well, this whole semester, actually.
I'm technically single as of 10-4. Things just didn't work out. Yeah, it kinda sucks, but shit happens. Now, there is someone else who has been there for me throughout this whole thing. We have been getting closer and closer and we are almost dating. We just didn't want to rush anything only because of BOTH of our breakups.

This is the happiest I have been for a while, and I am enjoying it quite fully. But, it just seems that I cannot talk about ANY of this to anyone. I just feel like even my closest friends will judge me. Yeah, they can think what they want, but I need this. Almost every night, I go to bed either thinking WAYY to much or crying myself to sleep. But when I come back from his place, I am the happiest girl alive.

So, what would you rather have? Someone completely depressed or someone who cannot stop smiling?

Two step forward and one step back.

Hello, my name is Amanda Hershey and I am no longer engaged. I'm still in my relationship, but we just thought it would be better for us to take it down a notch.

Well, this is just going to be honky dory, huh?

ALF Week, and I haven't gone yet.

I would just like to say that I hate thinking. End of story.
I'm thinking too much about

1. My relationship with Erich
2. My relationship with my friends
3. TBS
4. APO
5. My major
6. My life

Erich-I'm doubting the relationship any more. You say you love me, and yeah, I love you too, but it still seems that you want the physical aspect of the relationship more than anything. You keep saying you are sorry. If you are really and truly sorry, prove it. Actions speak louder than words.

Friends-Yeah, I feel like the Kyle Hart, but, with sleeves. It just feels like I am insignificant, the red-headed stepchild of our class. Yeah, everyone says they like me and they get along with me, but I just feel that then you talk about me behind your back.

TBS-I love my sisters! But, tooooooooo many committees and then being treasurer on top of this. Bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

APO-You guys have a lot of drama. Now, with this new pledge class, are you guys up for the challange?

Music Education with a concentration in Voice- Music is my life. I wouldn't know what to do without it. But now, anymore, I feel like I am going to fail, epically, mind you. My vocal lessons are becoming hell and I just want to punch Doc A in the face. Piano is a bitch, period, big dot, end of discussion. Oh, and Aural Skills, go to hell...

Life-I just want it to end. I've become more depressed than ever. I look at everyone going on their ways and I become jealous of the life they lead. Then I get that feeling that I will never be happy, ever.


Yeah, everything just sucks...

Sound the Clarion Call

So, yeah. Life sucks.
I really cannot wait to just be by myself. I could do whatever I want to.
I wouldn't have to worry about having anyone bug the shit out of me and I wouldn't be stressed.

But, how likely is that to happen?


Never...

Whatever.

Alright, finally a rant session that I haven't done in a while.
I am seriously thinking about switching my major. Everything has been putting me down big time. Aural Skills just sucks ass. I really do suck at sight singing and I just don't think I can do it. Dr. Alviani, thanks for making me feel like a complete ass and not knowing anything about myself and making me feel really insecure about everything. Fuck you. Oh, Brass class. I'm sorry I have never played a brass instrument before so therefore I have no embouchure. It really takes a toll on me. I'm no Steve Benton with Aural Skills, no Jon Mracko for singing, no Jimmy Ivell for brass, and basically, noone.

I just want to get out of this department. It just really feel right anymore. I feel like I get the shaft every single time.

Happens to everyone, right?

Day One:

Last year is when it all started, and I don't see it ever ending. Oreintation with that green pen did wonders. [Oh, I found that green pen again, in pieces, boooooo. Stupid dog...] Then we just started talking during drill, then had classes together, then realized, "Hey, she is pretty cool. Be here with me"

With all of my gossip I have, I usually tell you first, even before the boy. About guys, drama, life, and even music, I tell you everything. Well, not EVERYthing, but pretty much a lot of it.

This summer, you helped me out, a lot actually. Expecially toward the end of it, when I started doing stupid shit. Thanks a bunch :)

This is for you Ms. Meghan Emily Mashey, my best friend and my roomie :)

A letter assignment for 30 days.

I found this off of my one friends blog.
Yes, Kristen, I stole this off of you. :)
So...
Day 1] Your Best Friend
Day 2] Your Crush
Day 3] Your Parents
Day 4] Your Sibling, or closest relative
Day 5] Your Dreams
Day 6] A Stranger
Day 7] Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8] Your Favorite Internet Friend
Day 9] Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10] Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Day 11] A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12] The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13] Someone you wish you could forgive
Day 14] Some you've drifted away from
Day 15] The person you miss the most
Day 16] Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17] Someone from your childhood
Day 18] The person that you wish you could be
Day 19] Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad
Day 20] The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21] Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22] Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23] The last person you kissed
Day 24] The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25] The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26] The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27] The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28] Someone that changed your life
Day 29] The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30] Your reflection in the mirror

I'll start tomorrow and work from there.

Stupid people just shouldn't breed.

Blech...
This past summer just sucks...

Work is getting really boring, just standing there, holding a flag.
But yesterday, oh was it interesting.
My brother, Brandon [whom I met last week :D] was in the hospital. They found a tumor on his pituitary gland. He is going to take medicine for it so that it will go away.
Then, my boss, Cathy, went to the ER with chest pain. Don't know what was up, but they gave her some baby asprine and she went home, well, back to work.
NEXT! My other boss, John, jumped off the loader and sprained his ankle, really bad.
Then, a friend who lives down the road, Pam, called my grandma saying that she had chest pain, but in actuality it was a pinched nerve.

Tooo much chaos. :|

Then, drama today.
Can it be August 5th yet?

Holy not getting on here for a long period of time, Batman!!

So, 10 days since I haven't written, ANYTHING!
Just have been really busy.
Work-still sucks, but good money
Erich-just plain awesomeeee<3
Parents-alright, still freaking annoying.
Friends-cool :)
Seeeester-:)

That's all I can really think of.
Going shopping. :)
Byes!!

The best look of mine is a messy up do, a man's dress up shirt, and boy shorts. :)

Work was...work. I almost had the 'riding around in the car and do jack shit' job today, but I actually had to work. =\ But the positive thing is my hours are becoming shorter. Well, in a sense that is a bad thing. Oh well...

I want to go to my friend Penny's graduation party, but I don't think I will be able to. It would be interesting...

Maybe this weekend, only if I don't work, Erich and I are going mini golfing with friends. I am excited for it. After that, my lover and I are going to a classic dinner and a movie<3
I love him. :)

By the sea, wouldn't that be smashing?

I wish, just to get away from this hell hole called my house.

So, now I am only going to be working 8 hours a day. Good for my body, sucks for my wallet. What to do, what to do?...

Either way, I need the job and this is my only way of paying for college if I want to go back. Why does school have to be sooo fucking expensive??

Next order of business, Erich and I went to the park. It was fun, and I hurt myself. I wish I can lose, like, 50-60 pounds and I would amazing. Everyone says I have a cute face, and a wonderful...chest. Of course they would. I want to be able to stop people in their tracks and let them stare in awe.
I miss how I used to be the fastest girl in my grade. I need to get into shape, but, when do I have time?
Whatever...I'll probably be a fat truck driver, pumping gas and some junk...

And another thing...
[yayy ranting]
I love Erich to death, but damn, he wants to go out with me, but I have to pay for every little fucking thing. Yes, he has no job now, and yes, he will then, but, being staff doesn't get much.

BAH!!!!!!

Also, I hate work. Oh wait, I have said that before...
And I also hate the fact that I have to do everything for my parents. Okay, yeah, I am their kid, but damn. I have my own life and I work too. I usually have to ask for everything and I HATE IT! I'm 19, I can do whatever I want.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, I have said that numerous times before. I don't fucking care at this moment in time.

So yeah, I think I have caught up in my ranting for now.
Can't you tell I hate my life just a little right now?

I gotta catch up now...

Jeez. I haven't been on for a bit and some crazy things happen.
Well, not really, but at least I can dream. Haha.
Either way...
Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!
Hung out with Erich :D and cleaned my room. =\
After all of that madness and me getting pissed at my mother, we ate supper and then Erich and I just slept...together...in the same bed...in my room. :):):):)

MMMMMMMMMMoooooooooonnnnnnnnndddddddddddaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy
Work...end of story.
I rode around, and only flagged for, like, 3 hours. Hehe.
Then got home.
Wooo...not.

I reallllllllllllllllllllllllly want to move in with Erich, or get my own place, with Erich. Haha
<3

Mmmm, Sheetz hot chocolate. :)

GOOD MORNING!

So yeah, I didn't have to work today.
And I still got up at 4:30 to do it.
I think Dave called me last night, but I was on the phone. Woops. Haha

Oh well, I can help mom out at the store and I got a large hot chocolate. I'm pretty content for being up at this early of a time. :)

And my social security number is...

PSYCH! I don't have a good protection thing. Haha

WORK!
It was sort of interesting today. Basically walked all of Elk Run because they grated the entire road and then rolled it. The day went by fast and I was content with that.
AND!
I got paid. :D

Guess what?!
ERICH IS HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooooooooo excited about this, you have no idea.

Now, bedtime, well, phonetime with Erich then bedtime.

<3

"My friend kicked a bowling ball...and went to the hospital..."

Work...of a flag girl.
So yeah, work sucked... It gets really really really really really really old just standing there and flipping a sign. THEN you have dick heads who run your stop sign. Ohhhhhh that pisses me off....BAH!!!
Either way, Dave was working with me today, which made it a little better.
"Jigga wha?"
"Cool beans...
Whore"

Yeah, we cool. We also have it figured out that we have our own clique. Haha.

Misc. items on my mind.
But either way, Erich comes home tomorrow. I am sooooooo excited... :D This limited texting is sucking very badly and I just want to see him. Maybe Saturday or Sunday. All I can do is hope.

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In other news, I got along with my parents today.

Now for the weather...
Nice, a little cloudy, and almost dark. :P

*Dramatic Music* Sports!
I "ran" my own stop sign.

Thank you everyone for tuning in. Join us tomorrow for up to date news, weather, and sports, all by Amanda Hershey!

Ahh, sweatpants and hot chocolate on a summer day.

Before 6 o'clock AM:
Woke up at 4:30ish and then felt like crap. Oh how that is becoming a daily basis, and I fucking hate it.
Checked my Facebook and saw something that really bugs me.
Alright, opinion of people who read this [*cough* Moria *cough*], when you are out at a camp, like, middle of bumb fuck nowhere [not my house], and you are a staff member, you shouldn't be on the computer, correct?
[What is with these majorly long run-on sentences and myself recently?]
Anywho, I think that it is totally rediculous how kids now-a-day are like this. This is why our youth organizations are going down the drain. Goodbye 4-H, Boy Scouts, and Girl Scouts. Hello MySpace, MyYearbook, Facebook, and Twitter, nice to meet you.
Ooooo, this just completely bugs the shit out of me. I know, I should be following this myself, but I have been in 4-H since I was 8 and I followed through in it. I loved every single minute of it. That is where I learned all of my leadership skills and made great friends. How many teens were active in youth organizations in my high school career before we graduated? 6. Three were 4-H, and three were Boy Scouts, and I was the only girl.
From 6 o'clock AM to 2:30 PM
Work, in the fucking rain.
Alright, flagging is alright, but where there is shit happening. But when all of the construction is like, a mile down the road, it sucks. Even when there is no vehicals coming and going through. The best part of it all, it was freezing. Not like, a nice cool breeze because it is the summer. I mean, cold as ice wind with cold rain. So, standing outside with a stop sign, trying to stay warm and dry, wasn't a success. Either way, ANOTHER one of the dump trucks broke. Hydralic pump completely came off of the truck and oil went everywhere. After that, since our work area had no truck, I went back to Coudy to help mother.
2:30 PM to...now?
I help my mom with some of the things at the store: Organize some parts, returned some, entered some things on the computer, etc... Nothing really that important happened. Now, just annoyed my dad. Bahahaha.

I was excited the other night, I might have mentioned. Erich called me and I was so flipping happy. :):) Just hearing his voice just lit up my life. *Sighhhh* I really wish I could see him soon. Maybe on Sunday, he could come over here or we could go to the park. I just feel like being a little kid again, expecially with Erich. <3
I don't know, but just something about him makes me feel, happy. I can be myself and not care what anyone thinks of me.

Damn, I miss him like crazy...

:^]

Don't you hate it when all of a sudden, during the middle of the day, you think of the greatest status or blog, and then when you have time to write it, you completely forget what it was? [Like that run-on sentence there? :P]

Hello today. Haha.

Today must be a short blog day. Headaches suck ass and they require my bed.
Because it's warm.
And.
It loves me.

Night Y'all!

Hello, My name is Amanda Hershey and I am gullible.

So,
My mother is annoyng. Still treating me like I'm 12.
Good job. Short, 'cause she is rushing me. Of course.

FUCK!

:)

So, today was pretty much uneventful, besides texting Kyle. That was a fun time. Haha.
Anyways...
After work, I got tackled by Miranda and Felicia, old highschool friends. Totally awesome. Then, I went to a 4-H meeting, and got tackled by Eller and Amber. Again, awesome. Then lastly, I got to talk to Erich! So friggin' happy!! So, Sandy, he's alright. Haha.

Either way, short and sweet tonight. Gotta wake up at 4:30...again. Blech...

Early morning sunrise

So, I just wanted to say I HATEEE waking up at 4:30. But it's for my job and I get good money.
And, I'm in an 'eh' mood. Didn't really talk to Erich and it pretty much sucks... :(
He needs to figure out something with his phone and talk to me somehow. I'm on the breaking point 'cause I know he has one and it is giving me false hope...

BAH!

Jigga wha?

Another random tangent today. What is it, like, 4?
Anyways, I just got to thinking about my job. I am the only female teenager there around a bunch of perverted old men whom half of them I have known since I was like, 8.
What I do is flag for the guys. It is alright, but it gets boring as hell. >.Day one:
Him- "Hey, are you married?"
Me- "No, I am engaged"
Him- "I don't care" *laughs and drives away*
Day two:
Him-"Are you married yet?"
Me- "Nope"
Him- "Okay!" *drives away*
Day three[and the most recent]:
Him-*kissy face x28 and continues to drive*

Now, what in the hell am I suppposed to do?!? Fucking creepy old men...

The Bond Between Music Is Strong, But Best Friends Are Stronger.

Music Majors are crazy, no doubt about it. The thing is though, we have the strongest bond out there. We all know what boat you are in and if you need help, one of us is there to give you hand, literally and metaphorically. Ever since I started in Clarion, the randomness in the Music Department has made me feel welcome and at home.
Kyle Hart- Thank you. You are the greatest. From helping me on the drum line to helping me in the actual major. I can go to you for anything. :)
Meghan Mashey- ROOMIE! Silly green pen started it all. What would have happen if I loaned you a normal pen?! Cheese and Crackers!! Either way, I'm glad that it happened this way. :)
Moria Ambrose-TWINNN! Yes, you are crazy and I love you. Between you and I, I swear we were going to bug Doc A crazy at Washington. Hehe, oh well. We are the greatest!

Now, I have to deal at least 3 more years with all of you. Who is excited for this ride?

This boy...

...is pretty amazing.

Always there for me, never wanting to do anything to hurt me, and always having fun together.
I never knew that in Jr. High that we would even be like this. I would see him every day. He would sit behind me in all of my history classes, and we would always talk.
Chaskins-"The oil well..."
Us-"uhhhh"
Chaskins-"It's a duck"
Us-"MALLARD!"
Erich-"DRAKE!"
Me-"Crap!"

Something happened that day. Not entirely sure what, but something did.
We became closer, better friends. Either way, I liked it.

November 13, 2007 = ♥

I love you Erich, never forget.

Thunderstorms are enjoyable

Alrighty then.
Day two of this amazing-ness[not] blog. Wake up this morning at about 7:30, only because I couldn't sleep. Anymore, I keep tossing and turning and it is a pain in the ass. No idea why either. I keep thinking about everything, and I don't think that helps, at all.
I miss Erich terribly. This summer will be rough but I can do it...I hope.

We had a tornado watch and horrible thunderstorms. I liked it.
That canopy? Yeah, it's history. Leg pegs broke off and it's all twisted like a pretzel.
Good job, Mom. That is what you get for $20.

Landlines and Pizza Hut

Alright. I have it figured now that since I have made this, it will be for most of my venting.

So, I sit here on the main computer at the house, my parents are just-a bitching about the main landline. The electric went out earlier and now the phone won't ring. Yes, you can call out and we can receive calls, but the phone just won't ring. I tried, but then I get totally bitched at so I just quit on it.

Now, they were talking about Erich. I always wonder if they really like him or not...

Talking about Erich, we had a wonderful date last night. :) We went to 'Wellsville' and ate at Pizza Hut. It was amazing. We had fun, and made total ass's out of ourselves. We got back to my house at 11 and he tucked me in. We were so close to actually sleeping together but I knew that my parents would be pissed.
I should have just let him sleep. He works hard and needs a break once in a while...

It has happened to all of us

Once in a while you start to think about everything; Your friends, your family, school, why the sky is blue, things like that.
Recently, I have started thinking more in depth about all of this. I've made new friends this past year and they are the greatest. My family I love, but hell, they are annoying. I have the greatest man in the entire universe, and I am going to be marrying him sometime in 2013. Highschool was great, but college is even better.
College; this is what got me going on this rant. I was talking to Erich about this. I want to live my own life. I have tasted freedom, and I want more.
Alright, I live in a small community, in the back woods in the mountains. I have no license only because I have been delayed on it due to my parents. I want to go out with my fiance, but I always have to ask for permission. I just turned 19 and I still get treated like I am 12. I think there is something wrong here.
This is my new beginning, my new life. I want to get away from it all and just go at it.
Now, the next question is, will it happen?