Yeah. I have no idea what life is taking me.
I'm no longer with Erich Michael Petsch.
I'm currently taken by Justin Michael Ignatius Salada.
School is...moderate. I could possibly fail Antiquities and Aural Skills II.
Clarion isn't pulling my trigger now. I want trees, middle of nowhere, no trace of humans, nature, my home.
People are just getting on my nerves like mad.
TBS- I'll be quitting the Treasurer position next semester and giving my Music committee up to Moria.
APhiO-I might try for secretary next semester.
Oh, I'll probably be taking an 18 credit load and then I have my upper divisional then.
And I need to take my Praxis.
Hopefully I'll be able to come back next year. Thank you financial crap.
Anyways...
This guy, Salad, yeah. :) He is pretty great.
So far, he is the only one who can make me smile, and just can motivate me just enough to accomplish something. [At least this semester...]
Yeahhhhh, I just met him this semester and he is a Freshman. Oh well. :)
And one other thing, although you will probably not read this...
Erich, I am sorry for all the pain I caused you. I know you didn't deserve the hell I put you through. You deserve someone a hell of a lot better than me. Someone you know that can make you so happy it is crazy. I did believe once before that we would be together forever, but fate apparently didn't. I just wish could believe me and just understand where I am coming from. I'm sorry, and I hope you have a great life at Mansfield. You will do great.
I think I got a lot of my bases covered for now...
Honey, just remember, guys will come and go. You will LOVE and you will hurt and be hurt. It is all part of growing up, and growing older. Do NOT depend on a guy to motivate you. YOU are your motivation. Your FAMILY is your motivation. You WILL do GREAT things in life. You are already doing great things. One day, you are going to have a nice home, your family surrounding you, a husband, possibly children, and you will look back on all of these memories. You will shake your head and wonder to yourself "what was I thinking" but you will also fondly think back on all of those connections you made and be grateful for every single one of them, because they helped you in their own way. Every experience you have now helps you learn how to do things (or how you dont want to do things) in the future. Cherish this time. This, from someone who loves you, and has done everything in her life ass backwards. You WILL be GREAT!
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