Two step forward and one step back.

Hello, my name is Amanda Hershey and I am no longer engaged. I'm still in my relationship, but we just thought it would be better for us to take it down a notch.

Well, this is just going to be honky dory, huh?

ALF Week, and I haven't gone yet.

I would just like to say that I hate thinking. End of story.
I'm thinking too much about

1. My relationship with Erich
2. My relationship with my friends
3. TBS
4. APO
5. My major
6. My life

Erich-I'm doubting the relationship any more. You say you love me, and yeah, I love you too, but it still seems that you want the physical aspect of the relationship more than anything. You keep saying you are sorry. If you are really and truly sorry, prove it. Actions speak louder than words.

Friends-Yeah, I feel like the Kyle Hart, but, with sleeves. It just feels like I am insignificant, the red-headed stepchild of our class. Yeah, everyone says they like me and they get along with me, but I just feel that then you talk about me behind your back.

TBS-I love my sisters! But, tooooooooo many committees and then being treasurer on top of this. Bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

APO-You guys have a lot of drama. Now, with this new pledge class, are you guys up for the challange?

Music Education with a concentration in Voice- Music is my life. I wouldn't know what to do without it. But now, anymore, I feel like I am going to fail, epically, mind you. My vocal lessons are becoming hell and I just want to punch Doc A in the face. Piano is a bitch, period, big dot, end of discussion. Oh, and Aural Skills, go to hell...

Life-I just want it to end. I've become more depressed than ever. I look at everyone going on their ways and I become jealous of the life they lead. Then I get that feeling that I will never be happy, ever.


Yeah, everything just sucks...

Sound the Clarion Call

So, yeah. Life sucks.
I really cannot wait to just be by myself. I could do whatever I want to.
I wouldn't have to worry about having anyone bug the shit out of me and I wouldn't be stressed.

But, how likely is that to happen?


Never...

Whatever.

Alright, finally a rant session that I haven't done in a while.
I am seriously thinking about switching my major. Everything has been putting me down big time. Aural Skills just sucks ass. I really do suck at sight singing and I just don't think I can do it. Dr. Alviani, thanks for making me feel like a complete ass and not knowing anything about myself and making me feel really insecure about everything. Fuck you. Oh, Brass class. I'm sorry I have never played a brass instrument before so therefore I have no embouchure. It really takes a toll on me. I'm no Steve Benton with Aural Skills, no Jon Mracko for singing, no Jimmy Ivell for brass, and basically, noone.

I just want to get out of this department. It just really feel right anymore. I feel like I get the shaft every single time.

Happens to everyone, right?