A moment of reflection.

Wow, 2010 has been a rough year for me. Well, since the summertime to now at least.
Now all I can do now is just look back and think of the good times and remembering how awesome they were, the bad times and figuring out how I can change from those mistakes. And you cannot forget those awkward times and trying to figure out, "What in the hell was I thinking/doing?!"

To my co-workers from the summer- You guys are the greatest! Being able to joke around and hang out with the guys was the best. Ordering pizza and wings and getting hit on by the sand truckers made it hillarious.
To my college friends- Thanks for being there for me. You guys always made the Boyd worth while. I'm really glad I met you last year and this year. Cannot wait for more adventures.
To Justin Salada- You made me realize who I am. Thank you. I love music more than what I thought. Practicing actually makes you become better, and I never did so. If you never pushed me to do so, I wouldn't be where I am.
To Erich Petsch- Oh the emotional roller-coaster that we rode. I'm really glad we are giving this a 2nd shot. You mean the world to me. You have helped me through a lot of my rough spots in my life and I am pretty excited that you are there to help me with more.

So, with 2010 almost at a close, it shows me that one completely changes in a year. Now, raise a glass(wine, beer, soda, whatever!) and let's make a toast. A toast to make 2011 a kick ass year!

30 Day Challenge- Day 30

-Day 30-

A picture of someone you miss

-Erich-

I miss him being my boyfriend. I miss him being in my life. I miss my best friend. I miss being able to joke around with someone and ACTUALLY be myself.

30 Day Challenge- Day 29

-Day 29-
A picture that can always make you smile

-This one! :)-

Yep. He is adorable. Yep. We aren't together. Yep. It will happen again. Yep. I love him. Yep. All of these 'yep's' are getting annoying. Haha XD

30 Day Challenge- Day 28

-Day 28 : Part 1-

A picture of something you are afraid of.

-Bees-

Although I am not allergic to them, I am sooooooooooo freaking afraid of them. DX

-Day 28 : Part 2-

A picture of something that you are afraid of.

-Being alone-

I just get to thinking a lot, ya know? I start to think, what if I do end up alone? What if I can't find someone? Yeah, it really sucks. :\

30 Day Challenge- Day 27

-Day 27-

A picture of yourself and a family member

-Me and my seeeeeeeeester-

Right before a concert. Yeah, we are cool :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 26

-Day 26-

A picture of something that means a lot to you.

-My parents-

Yeah, I might not get along with them all the time, but they are the greatest. I wouldn't know what I would do without them. They are the greatest roll models out there and I couldn't ask for greater ones :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 25

-Day 25-

A picture of your day.

-Doctor's Appointment-

Blahhhh. Another attempt to see what is wrong with my head, well, why I am getting these headaches. :\

30 Day Challenge- Day 24

-Day 24-

A picture of something you wish you could change.

-Myself-

It looks really bad when I keep posting things of myself, basically saying I hate me. Well, it be true. Yesterday, I was talking to one of my good friends, and he says that I'm great. But then his parents say I'm something else, that I'm doing things that I KNOW that I'm not doing. Well then. Thanks for making me feel like shit, pretty much. I really and TRULY appreciate it. Because, you know, I might be failing a lot of classes, and have toooo much on my plate, and all of that. Just to make me feel more bad about myself on how I cannot do anything. Thanks.

Either way, I really do hate myself. My body is just, bleh. My way of thinking is getting allll messed up, and it just looks like I cannot do anything correctly. So, changing all of that would be fan-fucking-tastic.

30 Day Challenge- Day 23

-Day 23-

A picture of your favorite book

-Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson-

I find this book to be truly amazing. Just by posting this, I might have to read it again. <3

30 Day Challenge- Day 22

-Day 22 : Part 1-
A picture of something you wish you were better at

-Singing-
Yeah, I should know better, but I cannot help it. I keep on practicing, more this year than ever, to work on my pitch issues, my support, and my tone. I just cannot get it. I just wish it would happen, just like that.









-Day 22 : Part 2-
A picture of something you wish you were better at

-Drawing-
Okay, I have been in my creative mood recently, ever since finals have been over. And I look at some of my art major friends or DeviantArt and I get so jealous that some of my drawings aren't that good. I know I have to work on it, but it just suckssss. XP

30 Day Challenge- Day 21

-Day 21-
A picture of something you wish you could forget

-Drama-
This semester had toooooooo much drama for my liking. Just go away!!!!

30 Day Challenge- Day 20

-Day 20-
A picture of a place you'd love to travel to

-Ireland!!!!-
I have alwayssss wanted to go there since I was little. Now hopefully, since I am older, that can be more of a realization. :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 19

-Day 19 : Part 1-
A picture and a letter

-Dear Justin-
Alright, first things first. You helped me find myself. Thank you. Although it was the most confusing time of my entire life. You gave me a reality check and just showed me what everything was about. Thanks :)
Oh, and another thing... How come it seems like you kind of ignore me? Just curious!

~Amanda



-Day 19 : Part 2-
A picture and a letter

-Dear Erich-
I am sooo excited that we are getting things worked out. I haven't been this happy for the longest time and I'm so ready to make this work. And honestly, I do not care what my parents think. All that should matter is if I am happy or not. :)
That is all...for now...

~Amanda

30 Day Challenge- Day 18

-Day 18-
A picture of your biggest insecurity

-Myself-
Okay, I might not look all that insecure, but trust me, I am. I always doubt myself and I never do anything without second guessing myself and then I always do the wrong this. Go me!

30 Day Challenge- Day 17

-Day 17 : Part 1-
A picture of something that has impacted your life recently

-Erich Michael Petsch-
Technically, this is a someone. He hasn't just impacted my life recently, it started on November 13th, 2007. Yeah, I hurt him, and yeah, we aren't dating, but I think something might happen again. Either way, he has helped me realize what has happened in my life and I would like to say thanks :)








-Day 17 : Part 2-
A picture of something that has impacted your life recently

-Justin Michael Salada-
Okay, another someone, but still. Justin here has switched my life completely around this whole semester. He made me find God in a weird sense, and no matter what, he will always be there for me, well, when he isn't play COD or working on his composition. :P

30 Day Challenge- Day 16

-Day 16-
A picture of someone who inspires you

-My Aunt Lynn-
She was one strong woman. No matter what she was going through, she would always try and put our family first. Rest in peace Aunt Lynn. We all love and miss you ♥

30 Day Challenge- Day 15

-Day 15-
Something you want to do before you die

-Own a GIANT goat farm-
Okay, one thing that sucked during my childhood was when I had to get rid of our goats. I love those animals to death. So now, my sister and I have it figured out that I am going to have a huge goat farm so where she can have her Nubians and I can have my LaManchas. :D

30 Day Challenge- Day 14

-Day 14 : Part 1-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Kurvin Pfaltzgraff Hershey III-
I love my dad so much. I wouldn't be the stubborn, hard-headed girl that I am now without him, or the electrician, or mechanic, or the builder. :)





-Day 14 : Part 2-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Roseann Lee Hershey-
Although I completely shut her out sometimes, I do love her, a lot. She is always there for me, no matter what. :)






-Day 14 : Part 3-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Aleisha Mae Hershey-
She has always been there for me, through all the stupid boys, all of the stupid drama, everything. :) I loves you seeeeeeester.





-Day 14 : Part 4-
A picture of a person you can't imaging your life with out

-Linda Jane Enfield-
Although she isn't with us anymore, she was my closest aunt. I miss her with everything I have. She was the strongest woman I know. I love and miss you Aunt Lynn. ♥

30 Day Challenge- Day 13

-Day 13 : Part 1-
A picture of your favorite band or artist

-Breaking Benjamin-
They are totally love :) Whenever I'm down, they always help me boost my mood






-Day 13 : Part 2-
A picture of your favorite band or artist

-Amy Lee-
Same thing goes here. Her voice is so soothing and just relaxing to me. :)

30 Day Challenge- Day 12

-Day 12-
A picture of something you love

-Music-
Alrighty then. Music is my everything pretty much. I love to sing and I love to play my percussion. Without those two things in my life, I wouldn't really know what to do honestly. Sometimes, they add to the stress I have, but for the majority, they relieve it in a heartbeat. ♥

30 Day Challenge- Day 11

-Day 11-
A picture of something you hate

-Cities-
I love my boroughs/towns. They are nice and small and you know basically everyone in the town. In the city, I honestly get afraid to walk around and there is just too much there...

30 Day Challenge- Day 10

-Day 10-
A picture of you and a person you do crazy things with

-My seeeeeeeeester, who else?-
Haha, this picture can be self explanatory. :D I really do miss her and our shenanigans.

30 Day Challenge-Day 9

-Day 9-
A picture of a person who has gotten you through the most

-Erich Michael Petsch-
I really wouldn't know what to do without this kid. He was/is there for me throughout anything. We were close, but then we had relationship problems, but I have a feeling either way, we will bring back that closeness again. He is truly a great friend.
Thank you Erich, you have no idea how much you still mean to me. :)

30 Day Challenge-Day 8

-Day 8-
A picture that makes you laugh

-My band little-
Bri is one amazing girl :) She said she always wanted to be like her big. Hahaha :D

30 Day Challenge-Day 7

-Day 7-
A picture of your most treasured item

-My voice-
Yeah, although I say I hate my voice, I really do. I just love singing so much. It is a getaway from my life and just lets me feel whatever I want.

30 Day Challenge- Day 6

-Day 6-
A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

-My seeester-
She is one strong person. No matter what is thrown at her, she takes it. Plus, it would be interesting to see how it would be to have a full time job, a 2-year-old, and a mother who hovers. :D

30 Day Challenge- Day 5

-Day 5-
A picture of your favorite memory-

-The Class of 2009-
Yeah, it was about 13 years of my life, but still. This was the best class to be a part of. We were pretty damn close to each other. :)

(Shh, I know it's late. I have other priorities.)