Spring 2011 Semester.

So, already this semester:
-I've had two relationships which both fell through.
>Yeah. I was dating Erich, but that didn't seem right at all. I gave it a shot. That is what I get for doing that.
>Then I dated Michael Guzik. I should have known better with that one too. He seemed like a nice guy, and we have a great friendship. We tried it, and then he wouldn't talk to me, and said I was too clingy. Okay then. But, as other people told me, he was a man whore, but I never believed them. Now I do.
-I've had sex, when I was single.
>What in the hell is wrong with me???? This is the one of the few things that I ever regret doing. My mind and my heart didn't want it, but I guess my body did. I really wish I had more self control...
-I had a crush go out with my little, which hurt like bad.
>I love Brittany to death. She is one of the greatest little's ever :) But when her and Justin started dating, when I told him again that I still had a huge crush on him, it took me down. But I gained up the courage to say, "I'm proud of you guys"
-I might not be able to take my upper divisional because I am going to be so delayed with my Praxis.
>Fuck my life. I was never good at trying to get dates and what not all figured out for these huge tests. Now look, it is biting me right in the ass and delaying my college career. This makes me think if I am actually cut out for this.
-I gained a Grand-little in TBS.
>Woo! The one happy thing in this whole mess of my life. Kit See, you will go far in the sisterhood. I'm proud that you are in my family, and I'm proud to be your Grand Big :)
-I've gotten drunk.
>Yep, I drink. Shit happens. But I'm just glad that it wasn't the point of "Holy shit, I'm going to puke everywhere; I don't know where I am or what I did last night; Fffffffuuuuuuuuuu I have a hangover." I guess I am lucky in that aspect?
-I've been threatened to public safety.
>Thanks little. Ugh. Might as weel get this out in the open. I cut. I didn't think I would ever revert to that, EVER! But it started in the Summer of 2010. I was going through so much stress and an Anti-Depressant(for headaches) and it just happened. Until now, I've done it. I can't do this to myself anymore...
-I am already getting behind in my classes.
>This online class is going to kill me :/ There are so many assignments that I have no idea what to do. Lovely. And! I'm behind in my Music Ed Seminar class.
-I'm an emotional wreck 24/7 (Yes, even during times when I was happy).
>Why? Just look above and below. Along with all of my classes, my 5 ensembles, the 2 Greeks, MENC, and all of these stressers, who wouldn't be?
-I've smoked.
>Yes, Amanda Lee Hershey smoked. Disgusting, huh? I was drunk and I wanted to try it, and I did. Yeah, I know I'm stupid, but you can't change the past.
-I've been told that my other little has a crush on me.
>Now how do you exactly deal with this when your little is a girl and you like guys? Ugh......
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-I've gone to bed crying, almost every single night.
>Again, look at all of the things that cause it. Is college really supposed to do this to people?

Yeah. The semester is basically half-way through and I did all of that. God damn...