I wish, just to get away from this hell hole called my house.
So, now I am only going to be working 8 hours a day. Good for my body, sucks for my wallet. What to do, what to do?...
Either way, I need the job and this is my only way of paying for college if I want to go back. Why does school have to be sooo fucking expensive??
Next order of business, Erich and I went to the park. It was fun, and I hurt myself. I wish I can lose, like, 50-60 pounds and I would amazing. Everyone says I have a cute face, and a wonderful...chest. Of course they would. I want to be able to stop people in their tracks and let them stare in awe.
I miss how I used to be the fastest girl in my grade. I need to get into shape, but, when do I have time?
Whatever...I'll probably be a fat truck driver, pumping gas and some junk...
And another thing...
[yayy ranting]
I love Erich to death, but damn, he wants to go out with me, but I have to pay for every little fucking thing. Yes, he has no job now, and yes, he will then, but, being staff doesn't get much.
BAH!!!!!!
Also, I hate work. Oh wait, I have said that before...
And I also hate the fact that I have to do everything for my parents. Okay, yeah, I am their kid, but damn. I have my own life and I work too. I usually have to ask for everything and I HATE IT! I'm 19, I can do whatever I want.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, I have said that numerous times before. I don't fucking care at this moment in time.
So yeah, I think I have caught up in my ranting for now.
Can't you tell I hate my life just a little right now?
Roomie, we should start working together (and stick with it, haha) whenever school starts up again. I'd like to lose like 30 pounds, but my love for chocolate prevents that, haha. And I think every college student in America is with you on school being too expensive. And on asking the parents for stuff: I still have to live with that too, so I understand. But I think I understand why they do it with you. You're their youngest child, so they want you to stay their little girl (yay psych class senior year for teaching me something, lol). Hopefully they'll start to see that you are growing up, and need independence. I LOVE YOU!!! :)
ReplyDeleteI know. Band will help, but I want to lose before school. But I am not even active during work. Blech...
ReplyDeleteAnd I know. I hate being the baby sometimes... Bah!!
and, I LOVE YOU TOO!!! :)
you need to find some things to do with erich that dont cost much. like that park thing:P its a lot of fun :D
ReplyDeletein shape stuff.....im thinking we should do half hour to an hour of workout stuff at the rec center since MWF is marching band....so tuesdays and thursdays we should go together :D